Give It Away

          It is very difficult to put into words what it feels like to lose your mind.  It's impossible to find words to describe what a shattered heart feels like. When you are so broken that you can't even tell what you are feeling anymore. I have questioned if God is hearing my cries, or if he even cares anymore. I have tried to be so strong and have prayed to just feel numb. I have fallen apart silently on the inside and at other times cried in anguish and beat my fists into my pillow...begging God to take my pain away.

         I needed to hear from God in a desperate way. I needed him to tell me what to do with my life and my marriage.  To direct my decisions and give me a peace so strong it was undeniably from him.  I started pouring my heart out to God and it didn't take long for me to hit my knees. I realized quickly I was exactly where I needed to be. With a broken spirit I gave it all away. I cried in anguish to God and handed my marriage and my husband over to him. Begging him to take it..believing he has a plan for our lives.

            Well God is showing up. He is showing up through the work and hearts of other people. Strangers who have no obligation to care or to help us.  He is answering prayers. He is working out his plan for our lives.  I just had to give it to him.👆